Part Time Manager, Part Time Mum, FULL TIME LEGEND!

As a full time working wife & mother, I often find myself feeling incomplete.

A part time mother, who, during the hours of 7am - 6pm, has to dedicate all my time to my job, an adult day care provider.

I'm joking ... or am I ?

A number of my daily professional interactions result in the inspiration for my ramblings.

Crocodile Tears? 

Oh yes I did have to endure.

Two on Two?

You KNOW that's a survival tactic.

(Pooh is taboo, but honestly, we all feel awesome after dropping a 5 pound deuce)

Back to what I was talking about before .... 

I never quite feel like I'm a full time anything, you know?

I mean, I KNOW that I am, but there is always a part of me that wants to be more in the one or the other direction, more often than not, more of a mother.
Just give more time, or be more.

A really good friend of mine gave me some advice a long time ago, when I was on the fence emotionally about going back to work after having child #2.

After a little thing called personal revelation enlightened the hubby and I to the fact that it was right for me to go back to work, I had to get past the mental and emotional obstacles.

That piece of advice has stuck with me, and I think about this when I wonder 
"What the hell am I doing?".

It was more or less along the lines of the type making it worth it.
When I have to be away from my kids, I want to be sure I'm doing the best job I am capable of,  in whatever role I'm fulfilling.

I try to make a point, since I can't spend "quantity" time with my kids, to spend quality time with them.

I still suck. A lot. When it comes to parenting.

I work hard to be able to give my kids opportunities in life.

You know why else I work?

Coz its not the fifties anymore.

Kidding.


Everyone faced with the same dilemma I've been faced with has to make a choice that they can live with.
Being a stay at home mother?
Now THAT'S a tough job.


Sometimes I do wish I stayed at home with my kids.
Would it make them better people?
I don't know, they're pretty awesome.
Would I be the best person I could be if I stayed at home?
Who could say.
Maybe it's better for my kids to spend less time with me.

I do enjoy working though.

I've got a pretty intense job, I manage a number of people, and a number of conflicting priorities, and I'm pretty good at, if I do say so myself, and I DO.

I need to be sure I put that out there in the blog-o-sphere.

People interest me.

People's reactions to different situations intrigue (infuriate) me.

And seeing something successfully implemented from beginning to end, is extremely satisfying.

I work, therefore I am.

HELL NO.

I LIVE! 
Therefore I am.

When I got married, I entered into a partnership with my husband.

We both work full time, we share the load at home, we share everything with each other, I mean isn't that the point?.

It's not his responsibility to provide everything for our family, it's OUR responsibility to figure out this life together, and get through it together, the best way we know how.

Side by side huh Stephen Giles ?
Enjoying the ride together.